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Trying To Be Good
…the healing powers of lying, cheating, stealing and drugs

“Emelia Symington Fedy’s riveting new podcast memoir is a vividly evocative story of a life lived with deep feeling.  Like two standouts of this style, North of Normal by Cea Person and The Glass Castle by Jeannette Walls, this is storytelling that draws the listener in with gorgeous writing and a deliciously raw honest heart. She is so good."

-Cathy Jones (This Hour Has 22 Minutes) 

A directory of my favourite chapters to give you a taste…


"I laughed. I cried. To say that Emelia's material is self-deprecating is an understatement. And it is through her brutal honesty that her stories, filled with unforgettable details, characters, and images, come to life, providing us with a mirror in which we too can look directly at our imperfect, vulnerable reflection and celebrate the tragedy, beauty, and joy of our own existence.”

-Carmen Aguirre

(Best Selling Author and Canada Reads Winner of Something Fierce, Mexican Hooker #1)

TRYING TO BE GOOD: The Healing Powers of Lying, Cheating, Stealing and Drugs by popular radio host, theatre-maker, online personality and storyteller - Emelia Symington Fedy is her dark and comical story of her addiction to self-help and absolutely obsessive odyssey to find inner peace at all costs. A ruthless inquiry into her own demons, Emelia never lets herself off the hook on her search and after a lifetime of misadventures, spending close to $90,000 grand and two decades hunting down shamans, hypnotists, soul advisors and online gurus; turning to drugs, bad sex, vaginal weightlifting classes, crystal bowl regression ceremonies and cosmic dolphins trying to fill the void- her spiritual reckoning finally came when the death of her mom coincided with the birth of her first child. Rocked with grief, Emelia had no choice but to quit her life-long quest for contentment. She quit drugs. She quit yoga. She quit the search. And in turning towards her pain, Emelia finally she finds what she’s been longing for her whole life. She can’t escape. She can feel it all.

“It's a very moving experience to have the author, Emelia Symington Fedy, read her memoir aloud. As if we were all in the room with her, going on the journey of our own self-discovery together. Emelia does not shy away from the dark or the truth and that is what makes her storytelling so unique. She is cracking open her heart to share with all of us, and what a pleasure it is to be included in the experience. We all have stories and secrets to tell but so rarely to we get to share them aloud. Emelia opens the door for others to be completely honest and candid about what it's like to feel deeply.”

- Juni Rinadli (Workin' Moms, CBC)

Author and Performer

Emelia Symington Fedy

Emelia Symington Fedy is the creator of tryingtobegood.com, a website dedicated to personal essays, an advice column, videos and live storytelling that candidly explores the darkness of the human condition. A “social acupuncturist,” Emelia pokes where it hurts and elicits results that are both hilarious and healing. With over a million views in under a year and a monthly readership of over sixty thousand fans, tryingtobegood.com continues to rise in popularity. Thanks to the success of her blog and radio show Emelia won Gold Medal for Best Radio Host and Best Social Media Personality and Silver Medal for Best Blog in Vancouver, 2017.

Emelia has had assignments with Huffington Post, Recovering Yogi, Origin Magazine, Westender, The Georgia Straight, The Sunday Edition (CBC Radio), Definitely Not The Opera (CBC Radio), Out in the Open, Love Me, and NXNW (CBC Radio). She has spoken at The Public Salon, Leading Moms and TEDX Women.

For the past decade, Emelia has made feature-length documentaries about her home life (winning an honorable mention at The New York Doc Festival in 2015) and tells personal stories on CBC radio. She has on ongoing column with CBC’s national treasure The Sunday Edition that air’s bi-monthly.

Emelia has worked on over twenty-five new theatre productions nationally as both a writer and performer, and is the co-artistic director of The Chop Theatre, an internationally touring and award-winning creation-based theatre company based in Vancouver BC.

She lives in Vancouver, British Columbia with her husband, Christie, and two little boys Arthur and Obidiah. This is her first book.

"TTBG is a heart-wrenching, head-nodding revelation. Emelia shares her deepest truths with searing clarity, unrelenting honesty, and a remarkable openness that makes me want to listen forever. This book is an unexpectedly enchanting guide for how to live through our most challenging moments with heart, honesty and total presence in the true grit of life.”

-Dr. Jane Hansen, Psychologist, Berkley CA

The Point

In a time where self-help is a multi-billion dollar industry and the quest for inner peace has become a commodity, in TTBG I ruthlessly investigate my own relentless search for happiness in hopes that you feel less alone in your longings. For me, with all the “florescent light” filters we see on social media, truth-telling and acceptance of our own darkness is a radical act.

And this is a brand new genre; let’s call it long-form storytelling.

Think “radio play” for your ears only or “performed memoir” or “solo show for one.”

Let me know if you need anything else to get excited about sponsoring, interviewing me and reviewing Trying to be Good…the healing powers of lying, cheating, stealing and drugs.

In my 20 years of art making it’s what I’m most proud of and I hope you enjoy listening as much as I’ve enjoyed creating the work.

 emelia@tryingtobegood.com |  778-829-1730


Feel free to pass this free download along to a producer who wants to make it into a movie or a famous person with pull. SRSLY.  

The rest of the folks can purchase the memoir here so mama can buy fancy face cream/pay visa. If you loved it, please tell the world.

Reciprocation is a radical act and makes me fist punch the air.

Thank You’s:

Aaron @ https://aaronthe.tech/ for going above and beyond producing the sound and being my first pair of ears.

Christie Watson for the theme music and song. He’s so sexy. http://www.holdingspaceproductions.ca/

Elliott @ elliotvaughan.com

Martin Reisle @ martinreisle.com

Brian Chan @ brianhlchan.com

For the theme music.

Rebecca Woodmass at https://quillcreatelive.com/ for the beauty website.

And my community, past lovers, friends and family for hearing my version of events; my story through my own filters. It’s a vulnerable act, to speak your own truth. Thank you.