How’s living clean and sober? My inner child is a monster.

This is not going to be an ongoing theme in my writing, or maybe it is. But I’ve been off the weed for a few months now and I’m not saying it’s easy or has changed my life radically or brought me wizard powers but there’s some interesting shit happening. I also just lied. I smoked it once last weekend. …

Eff You Louis For Taking Away My Laughs.

I knew it was true when close to 4 years ago the freelance reporter tried to break the story and posted the contact via email admonishing him for being a perv and he wrote back…asking to meet in private then he ghosted the meeting. I knew it was true when the female comic talked about his attack on her popular …

How would you behave if you were the best at what you do?

Advice: Hi Emelia. I’m curious “how do you think you would behave if you knew you were the best in the world at what you do? Answer: I’ll answer this as best I can without sounding too annoying. I know when you long for something and someone else already has it figured out- their advice can come across as obnoxious …

A Radically Honest Conversation: Recorded Live.

One thing I love more than sitting down behind a microphone and interviewing a guest with salient questions and an open agenda is being interviewed by an intelligent host who can hold a deep space where truth-telling, laughing and surprise (at my own answers) is revealed. This is one of those interviews. One of my Necessary Creatives graduates (and facilitator and …

Stop: Enough is Enough

That time of day you want to smash your fist through your computer due to its ineptitude. That kind of day where you have a lot of very important and essential things to do and none of it gets done (due to bullshit). When you are convinced the universe is deciding to ruin you (or at least challenge your very …

Privacy is Necessary

Sometimes other people say it better for you… I used to think it was brave to let it all out, to share myself candidly and unabashed with the world. I still do. But now there is a deeper part of me that also knows how rich privacy is, how secrets and mystery grow into creations that far surpass what I thought …

Sitting on my Hands, Chomping at the Bit.

This is an ongoing question for me in terms of creativity. Do I push or do I wait for the muse to “nudge” me along. I had an intuitive session once and she told me “Emelia you ignite this little pilot light of an idea, it just starts sparking flame and then your BLOW on it screaming GO GO GO …

Drug induced hallucination or enlightenment? You tell me.

My husband was away for the weekend and I quickly dropped to the floor- sick. I’ve never had to parent sick before, it’s a gawdafull mess. I guess no one speaks about the horror of crawling around on your hands and knees trying to get french fries cooked so they can watch 3 more hours of TV while you moan, …

It’s Okay To Want To Be Seen

I took a picture of myself journaling. That is some is next level shit. I use social media as a tool for connection and to get my art into the world immediately and accessibly and I also use it to be noticed, observed doing something useful in the world- therefore making it valid. I used to be ashamed of my …

None of this makes us crazy

Some mornings I wake up feeling really grounded and by the afternoon I’m overwhelmed and wanna run for the hills in my flip flops and hide under the leaves. This doesn’t make me crazy. One night I’ll have a nightmare and wake up crying and this affects my productivity for the rest of the day. This doesn’t make me crazy. I sometimes use …